啊。。。闷阿。。。怎么今天我会这样闷呢。。。 天天就是工作工作，忙完回家睡觉。偶尔去就喝茶。 完了也不是回家。电话呢。。。也是这样，不响不闹。一闹就是工作。 我的生活就好像天天重复的又重复。好像缺少了什么似的。。。朋友说，她的男朋友没有时间陪他。 她就说孤单。我就想， 你们至少还有偶尔偶尔去玩玩，看看戏，逛逛街， 拍拍拖 等等。
那么，我又怎样？我不就是空虚吗？空虚的我，会比你的孤单来的更强烈。我已经这样子都很久了，你呢？则少你们还有一起的， 作喜欢的东西等等。
当我想起了以前发生过的东西， 都过了一些日子了。。。 我都已经没有再想她了。 都应该说，我都康复了。应该可以继续的生活下去了。
就是。。。当环境很安静的时候，我就是喜欢胡思乱想的。 即使工作时，什么都不想的。
我太厉害了。。。 天天就是工作的。。。。忙坏了。。。 难道到现在都没有人要。哈哈哈~
好了。。。 不说了。。。
安安！
Thursday, June 29, 2006
Sunday, June 25, 2006
England Fired Through!
England blast Equador off in the last 16 in the Fifa World Cup Germeny 2006. In the 60th minutes, England Captain Beckham scores with a superb free kick at the 30 yards line. The ball flew right to the side of the goal post where the keeper was totally out of reach.
That goal has lead England into the last 8 of the Fifa World Cup! For more info, please visit. http://fifaworldcup.yahoo.com/06/en/
3 Cheers for England ! GO ENGLAND !
That goal has lead England into the last 8 of the Fifa World Cup! For more info, please visit. http://fifaworldcup.yahoo.com/06/en/
3 Cheers for England ! GO ENGLAND !
Saturday, June 24, 2006
Saturday night!
This is the saturday night... kinda happening... had dinner with parents after that a match between Germeny and Sweden, Sweden has lost the match.. i have lost 20 dolar from that match... sigh... any how its ok ... the most is just to contra the balance which he owes me. hahaha ... the match between maxico and argentina has began ... the current score is 1:1 ... i have heavy bets for maxico... lets hope they could at least draw the game or just lose by 1. not more then that... else ... im gonna lost again... damn ! ....
had some fun over in "Rush" today. the music was as usual. Good in another word. The babes are even better. woow ~ sigh... i did something really sinful today ... i hope its ok ... sob sob ...
but the feeing was great... 3 cheers for me !~ Hip hip Hurray !Its 4am now ... gonna get a bath and sleep now.... tired... i enjoy myself today ...thanks every one~
had some fun over in "Rush" today. the music was as usual. Good in another word. The babes are even better. woow ~ sigh... i did something really sinful today ... i hope its ok ... sob sob ...
but the feeing was great... 3 cheers for me !~ Hip hip Hurray !Its 4am now ... gonna get a bath and sleep now.... tired... i enjoy myself today ...thanks every one~
Thursday, June 22, 2006
World Cup Updates! CZ vs ITALY !!!
Fifa World Cup updates! CZ vs Italy, the score is 0 : 2 and now they are packing up to go back to their country. Unbelieveble... the match was good, alot of chances for the CZ but they are just unable to complete it. As for Italy, a congratualation to them, they have qualified to be in the top 16 now.
Sigh... i always wanted cz to win... but some how they just can't do it right. CZ had their days... This was not their year... with so many red cards and injury with their players... this is really their disadvantage againts all other team. Lets hope they can do it again next time. maybe the next world cup. Anyway, it was a great match! Well done to Italy and CZ.
And hey, thanks mike for the generous donation to me. My Fifa coffee cup just upgraded to a Coffee bean cup~ LOL ~
Cheer!
p.s long day at work... tiring as well... gonna buzz !
Sigh... i always wanted cz to win... but some how they just can't do it right. CZ had their days... This was not their year... with so many red cards and injury with their players... this is really their disadvantage againts all other team. Lets hope they can do it again next time. maybe the next world cup. Anyway, it was a great match! Well done to Italy and CZ.
And hey, thanks mike for the generous donation to me. My Fifa coffee cup just upgraded to a Coffee bean cup~ LOL ~
Cheer!
p.s long day at work... tiring as well... gonna buzz !
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
我的从前
当你看到我以前所写的文章后, 可能你会说. 这些都是以前的事了啊. 怎么又拿出来说呢. 有些东西,当你失去了, 你才会去珍惜. 但是,终会有人是比一般人不同的.
我啊...以前就是一个天大的傻瓜.以前每当我想起她时, 我就会很伤心. 很悲观.很无奈. 现在的我,当我找到了我的时候. 就是当我在用功的工作的时候. 我现在呢,就是利用工作的时候来麻醉自己咯. 很奇怪的, 这个就是最有效的了.
我现在呢. 喜欢去逛就去逛. 喜欢买东西就买. 花就花. 没烦恼的. 看到我的哥哥, 比较可怜的... 拱房子 等等. 到处都是钱. 糟糕得不得了~
好了... 没有灵感了.明天再来~
我啊...以前就是一个天大的傻瓜.以前每当我想起她时, 我就会很伤心. 很悲观.很无奈. 现在的我,当我找到了我的时候. 就是当我在用功的工作的时候. 我现在呢,就是利用工作的时候来麻醉自己咯. 很奇怪的, 这个就是最有效的了.
我现在呢. 喜欢去逛就去逛. 喜欢买东西就买. 花就花. 没烦恼的. 看到我的哥哥, 比较可怜的... 拱房子 等等. 到处都是钱. 糟糕得不得了~
好了... 没有灵感了.明天再来~
1st week of holiday after exam
I have finally finished my exam. now im having holiday till end of july... till my uni reopen. im now sitting here doing totally nothing.
i felt totally lost. i dont know why.
i read thru the astro.qq.com today . reguarding my horoscope, they have mention that whose the one giving most pressure to you. it happen to be gemini. this friend was very nice. but some how ... recently, he met this girl over in the internet. oh well, his life of grive has over, i ask him to go for it if you got the feel towards her :) most importantly, all my friends are happy. i dont really care much.
well... after so long it has been... 7 months. i might think that i have forgotten her. but ... i dont know why, i met alot of friends, there are many many better girls out there... but i dont know why ... i just couldnt get the right feel towards them... can it because i still miss her alot ? maybe i am still missing her... Her Uni reopen tomorrow... and she will be going back there soon. i here to wish her all the best in her studies and life...
i really hope that she will be fine after so long. a month ago... she broke up with her bf... i went to mmu to look for her... confort her... i dont know why i do it... but ... its realy sour when i see her cry. i dont want to see her cry. i hate to see my friends cry.
i really hope to take all of the pain and sadness away from her. i rather suffer then seeing her sad.
i hope she will be fine now la... oh well.... 2 more days going to be her bday. i wish to be there for her... but i dont think its going to happen. oh well... she got alot fo friends whose more care about her. lets just hope they will be there for her when she need company.
oh well.... i went to rainforest in piramid with eugene and wing hong yesterday. we had some beer and also a shot of flamming lambogini... jezz... i really didnt know they could not stand the alcohol... eugene had only one ... then his owned.
luckily wing hong can still stand. as for me ? those are nothing... hehe ... any how, at least i know where is their level of alcohol is ... ill watch out for them next time.
i feel really lonely and sad these days ... expecially seeing my friend falling into love rivel again. im happy for him... sad for myself. i dont have the heart for relationship but i hope my friends to be better :)
haha dumb me ...
oh well... wish you all the best :)
alright... write some other time...
i felt totally lost. i dont know why.
i read thru the astro.qq.com today . reguarding my horoscope, they have mention that whose the one giving most pressure to you. it happen to be gemini. this friend was very nice. but some how ... recently, he met this girl over in the internet. oh well, his life of grive has over, i ask him to go for it if you got the feel towards her :) most importantly, all my friends are happy. i dont really care much.
well... after so long it has been... 7 months. i might think that i have forgotten her. but ... i dont know why, i met alot of friends, there are many many better girls out there... but i dont know why ... i just couldnt get the right feel towards them... can it because i still miss her alot ? maybe i am still missing her... Her Uni reopen tomorrow... and she will be going back there soon. i here to wish her all the best in her studies and life...
i really hope that she will be fine after so long. a month ago... she broke up with her bf... i went to mmu to look for her... confort her... i dont know why i do it... but ... its realy sour when i see her cry. i dont want to see her cry. i hate to see my friends cry.
i really hope to take all of the pain and sadness away from her. i rather suffer then seeing her sad.
i hope she will be fine now la... oh well.... 2 more days going to be her bday. i wish to be there for her... but i dont think its going to happen. oh well... she got alot fo friends whose more care about her. lets just hope they will be there for her when she need company.
oh well.... i went to rainforest in piramid with eugene and wing hong yesterday. we had some beer and also a shot of flamming lambogini... jezz... i really didnt know they could not stand the alcohol... eugene had only one ... then his owned.
luckily wing hong can still stand. as for me ? those are nothing... hehe ... any how, at least i know where is their level of alcohol is ... ill watch out for them next time.
i feel really lonely and sad these days ... expecially seeing my friend falling into love rivel again. im happy for him... sad for myself. i dont have the heart for relationship but i hope my friends to be better :)
haha dumb me ...
oh well... wish you all the best :)
alright... write some other time...
worst day ever...
today was my worst day ever... i have never been so down for so a while now...
i think today really kicked me really hard. Man... i want to scream or just cry out. The feeling that i have now in me was so different. i am feeling down, i am feeling disturbed, i feel like dieing ... althoght i might died if i did not pull off when the car stuck in the middle of the road.
Haizzzz....
Today was like usual... was suppost to be a fine and happy day. few of the classmates plan to play badminton after class, and we did like usual. upon after class, we were heading back the rain just pour on us. Aiks.... so i was thinking ... maybe we can go play, cause we are playing it in the indoor badminton court. well... as planned , we head back home and change. and there we go to the taman megah. on our way there, aiks... every where was JaMming like sadwish every where... i thought of taking the short cut. where i might get over it... didnt know ... aiks.... the car went into a total dissaster .... man ... my car was flooded... bloody Feakign "Ame" as in rain in japanese...
man i dont know it at all ... even today yam cha.... they touched topics which i dont like at all...something to do with girls... really Bakaa.... other then that ... Whats wrong with going out yam cha ? go out yam cha also need to scold ... wtf is this .... why ! why ! tell me ! why !
i think today really kicked me really hard. Man... i want to scream or just cry out. The feeling that i have now in me was so different. i am feeling down, i am feeling disturbed, i feel like dieing ... althoght i might died if i did not pull off when the car stuck in the middle of the road.
Haizzzz....
Today was like usual... was suppost to be a fine and happy day. few of the classmates plan to play badminton after class, and we did like usual. upon after class, we were heading back the rain just pour on us. Aiks.... so i was thinking ... maybe we can go play, cause we are playing it in the indoor badminton court. well... as planned , we head back home and change. and there we go to the taman megah. on our way there, aiks... every where was JaMming like sadwish every where... i thought of taking the short cut. where i might get over it... didnt know ... aiks.... the car went into a total dissaster .... man ... my car was flooded... bloody Feakign "Ame" as in rain in japanese...
man i dont know it at all ... even today yam cha.... they touched topics which i dont like at all...something to do with girls... really Bakaa.... other then that ... Whats wrong with going out yam cha ? go out yam cha also need to scold ... wtf is this .... why ! why ! tell me ! why !
凌晨4：15
今天，不懂什么事情。。。凡是都进行的不顺利。今朝，去学院里去做功课。好啦，功课做完了，应该会很顺利罗。
到了傍晚，晚餐后，恶魔来了。不知为什么，在网上。。。聊得聊的，不知不觉的，简单的几句话，竟然会反了面。不懂是我吗？我的语气有问题吗？我犯了他吗？真搞不懂。
不知不觉的，又想起了她。。。就象当晚我们聊的。双方都翻了面一样。想找人聊聊，但是想不起跟谁聊。以前，有她的陪伴，生活多姿多彩。不会孤独，不会厌倦的。现在，她已不在了，反而，听说她有了现任男友。大概，她真的没把我的存在当着一会事。大概，EUGENE说的对，我们相遇的太早。我爱上了一个不应该爱的人。虽然，我们分开了已有四个月加五天了。我还是偶尔的会梦起她，想起她，想念她，甚至恶梦里醒来。。。眼泪直流的。。。我天天都在努力的把她忘了，但是仍然不能。想认识新的女朋友，也不行。。。我真的找不了象她或比她好的。我是真的很爱她。真的真的很爱她。
上网上网。。。天天上网就是MP3罢了。聊天？少了。。。就是聊一回，也会反面。我那里还敢再上网聊天。天啊，你真的这么忍心得让我受这种折磨吗？我恨你，我恨死你了。。。
唉。。。累了，我去睡好了。
到了傍晚，晚餐后，恶魔来了。不知为什么，在网上。。。聊得聊的，不知不觉的，简单的几句话，竟然会反了面。不懂是我吗？我的语气有问题吗？我犯了他吗？真搞不懂。
不知不觉的，又想起了她。。。就象当晚我们聊的。双方都翻了面一样。想找人聊聊，但是想不起跟谁聊。以前，有她的陪伴，生活多姿多彩。不会孤独，不会厌倦的。现在，她已不在了，反而，听说她有了现任男友。大概，她真的没把我的存在当着一会事。大概，EUGENE说的对，我们相遇的太早。我爱上了一个不应该爱的人。虽然，我们分开了已有四个月加五天了。我还是偶尔的会梦起她，想起她，想念她，甚至恶梦里醒来。。。眼泪直流的。。。我天天都在努力的把她忘了，但是仍然不能。想认识新的女朋友，也不行。。。我真的找不了象她或比她好的。我是真的很爱她。真的真的很爱她。
上网上网。。。天天上网就是MP3罢了。聊天？少了。。。就是聊一回，也会反面。我那里还敢再上网聊天。天啊，你真的这么忍心得让我受这种折磨吗？我恨你，我恨死你了。。。
唉。。。累了，我去睡好了。
Monday night, E-sensation
It was monday, 5th of January. She had an event on that day. She invited me before, and i never forget about it... so i attented it... but... she do not seems to remember anything about it... but some how... she really forgot about it. i was suppost to have a class that day, but... i skiped the class... and went all the way to mmu to see her event.
She look really bad that day... from the look in the eyes, she never had enoght sleep the whole week preparing for the drama. We reach there around 8:15 pm... we almost missed her drama... but we made it, thank god. It has been 30 days... today its the 30th day, every day... i try to make myself happier... but cant....
today, i woke up late... around 1 something... never had lunch .... only had dinner in the end of the day. When i was eating dinner... image of her just come by me every time i am eating... i dont know how is her now... i really hope she is alright. I was kinda upset tho... but what can i do about it... haizzz :((
seeing her, always make me sad each time. I do not know what is she thinking... i do not want to know... i have no idea what is she thinking... i really do not know... i... miss her still....
She look really bad that day... from the look in the eyes, she never had enoght sleep the whole week preparing for the drama. We reach there around 8:15 pm... we almost missed her drama... but we made it, thank god. It has been 30 days... today its the 30th day, every day... i try to make myself happier... but cant....
today, i woke up late... around 1 something... never had lunch .... only had dinner in the end of the day. When i was eating dinner... image of her just come by me every time i am eating... i dont know how is her now... i really hope she is alright. I was kinda upset tho... but what can i do about it... haizzz :((
seeing her, always make me sad each time. I do not know what is she thinking... i do not want to know... i have no idea what is she thinking... i really do not know... i... miss her still....
Another day has past...
another day has past, back from genting, doing nothing again. all i did was wasting money up there. Spend rm 10 in the "pa qing go" so call casino. Bothing much has happen for the pass 2 days. All went as planned. Today was my last day up on genting, walked around first world, found something i wanted to get for her... because of what happened already, that is why i never get her the craft name... but today, i happen to walk to the place again. This time, i actually decided to get it... even we are no longer together. I wonder how is she now.
Tonight, D called up me to go yam cha with D,K ,E and his girlfriend. We went to SS2 mamak stalls. We chit chated for a while and stuff. Everything looks normal to me, but i do really feel a little disturb when they talk about my issue. But, it has already been 21 days... i am trying my best to make myself feel better. But i know myself, i really done it this time, where i really do feel hurt ,sad and cried.
After the yam cha section, they ask me to go to the park... Well, the last time was regarding E and his girlfriend issue. looks like this time is my issue. I asked D about his progress towards T, cause T was a friend to B. What i know, they seems to be getting along pretty well. Progress is the thing. Glad to hear. I failed and sure i do not want my friend to be something like me. I will wish them for the very best. Do not give up D, she is a very nice girl. Go for it.
I remember D told me today, about that day they were in Qbar... i really do not like to hear about the story. It really hurt me alot. and i mean it really does. about this guy whose aftering B and the way he treat them. i really feel sad and more sad i think about it. But i know, it is not beyond my control... She got the rights to choose... I do not know who is that guy, but i really hope he is a good guy who can really treat her nicely. If i know he hurt her or anything, i am sure to break his leg. and i really mean it. But most importantly, i really wish that they are getting along well.... if there is any progress there... lets hope for the best. As long she is happy, while i am not... but i will wish her to be as happy always.
i miss you alot dear... i really do...
Tonight, D called up me to go yam cha with D,K ,E and his girlfriend. We went to SS2 mamak stalls. We chit chated for a while and stuff. Everything looks normal to me, but i do really feel a little disturb when they talk about my issue. But, it has already been 21 days... i am trying my best to make myself feel better. But i know myself, i really done it this time, where i really do feel hurt ,sad and cried.
After the yam cha section, they ask me to go to the park... Well, the last time was regarding E and his girlfriend issue. looks like this time is my issue. I asked D about his progress towards T, cause T was a friend to B. What i know, they seems to be getting along pretty well. Progress is the thing. Glad to hear. I failed and sure i do not want my friend to be something like me. I will wish them for the very best. Do not give up D, she is a very nice girl. Go for it.
I remember D told me today, about that day they were in Qbar... i really do not like to hear about the story. It really hurt me alot. and i mean it really does. about this guy whose aftering B and the way he treat them. i really feel sad and more sad i think about it. But i know, it is not beyond my control... She got the rights to choose... I do not know who is that guy, but i really hope he is a good guy who can really treat her nicely. If i know he hurt her or anything, i am sure to break his leg. and i really mean it. But most importantly, i really wish that they are getting along well.... if there is any progress there... lets hope for the best. As long she is happy, while i am not... but i will wish her to be as happy always.
i miss you alot dear... i really do...
its almost christmas...
It 's almost christmas, tomorrow will be the eve. Where suppost to be the wonderful day where i can be with her. But that has already over. Now i am here single, sad when ever i think about it. Already 14 days, and writing this makes it the 15th day. We stop seeing each other for already 15 days. Last sunday where i just got back from genting, me and a few friends and also my cousins who followed me to genting those few days. I had a great time with all my friends and also my cousins. We had great time together. Thanks alot Ling and Yen.
Just to write something about genting la... We went to genting on Friday, afternoon, we had lunch in KL sentral and toke a bus to genting on friday. Along thejourney was like usual, as usual and boring~ :P hehehe nothing much happen on the way there. Slept a while on my way there tho. later then, toke cable car up. It was kinda cold up there. It is december, the weather should be cold tho. well, it was.... freaking cold :P Reach there around 4:30, settle down a little... and the time flies. It was 7:00 already, we decided to go out for a walk and stuff, we had Ramli burgers up there. The Cheapest food we can find in genting... RM 2.50 for a burger special which makes it the cheapest burger and dinner ever :P hehehe. Then, later then we went to Coffee baen for a drink till around late night tho... wow.... next day... heheh midnight lor... we had some alcohol then, Vodka, Whisky and chivas. Almost had that chivas, we could not finish it... oh well, the vodka was good tho, a little orange juice and coke got it started. That night, my cousin, was asking for my phone... asking me to give her my phone to keep... oh well, what else can i do... i just gave it to her thats all i did. She said that, you will surely phone some one if you have the phone. well that do make sense tho... i didnt call but sms instate... That night... i bet i am the one who had almost the whole half bottle of the vodka. and along with some mixture of balentine whiskey. i drank alot that night....
I already told myself that day, i wanted to get drunk... thats all i want to do... i want to let it out... let everything out... and i did... that night. Until a cirtain limit where most of us are kinda high and some actually didnt drank much and they went to play mahjong... some then continue to drink. me expecially...
I went and change the music, to the CD where i burn for her(berry)... another duplicate of the copy... i toke up that disc and played it on the player... i just got fustrated and kept on changing the music... until... where the music was the one i wanted to hear... It was "Ni Bu Zai" by wang lee hom. I stode there... listening to the music... then i sit down next to the speaker... cry... i could not remember a thing that time... i was totally out of my mind... so sad... very sad... I cry so hard... i just cry... and cry... that time, the only person who actually confort me is my cousin... i was sad.... very sad... but any how... thanks alot cous, thanks alot....
after thay night, i try to make myself happier. live happily, trying my best to do so... the 2nd day and 3rd day has nothing much to do... every thing was on the 1st day... where everything did kicked in... thanks every one... thanks alot...
on sunday night, me and my cousins went to pasar malam in kepong. I promised my cousins to bring them to the shake corner for a drink and i kept my promisses, so i brang them there. We went to pasar malam 1st, then we go "yam cha". The pasar malam was near to her house... sure i did, sms her asking her whether she wanna join us to go pasar malam... but then, she says she going yam cha later... infront of her house... ok... we do our shopping and she yam cha... after pasar malam, i called and ask her, whether wanna meet up or something... but then... she was like, "er, you like lar" kinda thing... maybe i was just sensitive... later then... i walked to the place... saw her with another guy there chatting and stuff... so i just walk away... seeing her smile and stuff will be good enoght for me... i just then dont want to go and interrupt them. i just can't do that... altho im sad, but... oh well i cant do anything you know...
i was away from the computer for 3 days... i did not yahoo, icq nor msn for the pass 3 days ... know nothing is happening in the background. where today... the whold day, i did not see her online at all... She in mmu, she should has at least online for a while or something... but she didnt... this really makes me worried... i really do still miss her i guess... as for now... its almost 1:45 am tuesday 23/12/2003, i still dont see her online... maybe she is still practicing for the e-sensation thing... i just drop her a few line of messages... just to make sure she online and read it... i really want to know what has happen... at least.... rang me or something... im worried shit...:((
oh well.... gotto go now...
all da best every one...
signing off ~ :P
Just to write something about genting la... We went to genting on Friday, afternoon, we had lunch in KL sentral and toke a bus to genting on friday. Along thejourney was like usual, as usual and boring~ :P hehehe nothing much happen on the way there. Slept a while on my way there tho. later then, toke cable car up. It was kinda cold up there. It is december, the weather should be cold tho. well, it was.... freaking cold :P Reach there around 4:30, settle down a little... and the time flies. It was 7:00 already, we decided to go out for a walk and stuff, we had Ramli burgers up there. The Cheapest food we can find in genting... RM 2.50 for a burger special which makes it the cheapest burger and dinner ever :P hehehe. Then, later then we went to Coffee baen for a drink till around late night tho... wow.... next day... heheh midnight lor... we had some alcohol then, Vodka, Whisky and chivas. Almost had that chivas, we could not finish it... oh well, the vodka was good tho, a little orange juice and coke got it started. That night, my cousin, was asking for my phone... asking me to give her my phone to keep... oh well, what else can i do... i just gave it to her thats all i did. She said that, you will surely phone some one if you have the phone. well that do make sense tho... i didnt call but sms instate... That night... i bet i am the one who had almost the whole half bottle of the vodka. and along with some mixture of balentine whiskey. i drank alot that night....
I already told myself that day, i wanted to get drunk... thats all i want to do... i want to let it out... let everything out... and i did... that night. Until a cirtain limit where most of us are kinda high and some actually didnt drank much and they went to play mahjong... some then continue to drink. me expecially...
I went and change the music, to the CD where i burn for her(berry)... another duplicate of the copy... i toke up that disc and played it on the player... i just got fustrated and kept on changing the music... until... where the music was the one i wanted to hear... It was "Ni Bu Zai" by wang lee hom. I stode there... listening to the music... then i sit down next to the speaker... cry... i could not remember a thing that time... i was totally out of my mind... so sad... very sad... I cry so hard... i just cry... and cry... that time, the only person who actually confort me is my cousin... i was sad.... very sad... but any how... thanks alot cous, thanks alot....
after thay night, i try to make myself happier. live happily, trying my best to do so... the 2nd day and 3rd day has nothing much to do... every thing was on the 1st day... where everything did kicked in... thanks every one... thanks alot...
on sunday night, me and my cousins went to pasar malam in kepong. I promised my cousins to bring them to the shake corner for a drink and i kept my promisses, so i brang them there. We went to pasar malam 1st, then we go "yam cha". The pasar malam was near to her house... sure i did, sms her asking her whether she wanna join us to go pasar malam... but then, she says she going yam cha later... infront of her house... ok... we do our shopping and she yam cha... after pasar malam, i called and ask her, whether wanna meet up or something... but then... she was like, "er, you like lar" kinda thing... maybe i was just sensitive... later then... i walked to the place... saw her with another guy there chatting and stuff... so i just walk away... seeing her smile and stuff will be good enoght for me... i just then dont want to go and interrupt them. i just can't do that... altho im sad, but... oh well i cant do anything you know...
i was away from the computer for 3 days... i did not yahoo, icq nor msn for the pass 3 days ... know nothing is happening in the background. where today... the whold day, i did not see her online at all... She in mmu, she should has at least online for a while or something... but she didnt... this really makes me worried... i really do still miss her i guess... as for now... its almost 1:45 am tuesday 23/12/2003, i still dont see her online... maybe she is still practicing for the e-sensation thing... i just drop her a few line of messages... just to make sure she online and read it... i really want to know what has happen... at least.... rang me or something... im worried shit...:((
oh well.... gotto go now...
all da best every one...
signing off ~ :P
Another day with no purpose...
Phone was as usual quiet... empty... lifeless. Still misses her as always... Saw her online on the computer. Will always be the same by thinking that ... Hope she will message me one day, like she always do... but she didnt. Sad day... knowing that teng went out with don the other day. looks like i made a good move by letting them know each other.
If i cannot be with her... i sure want my friends to be better. I may not be a good lover after all. Maybe thats why i could not win her heart of her ex.
haiz... thinking of the magical moments we were together for the pass 2 months. All the stuff we do together, study together, discuss, chat, laugh, smile, kai kai and many many things. Those are just pure memories. Could not affort to see her on Yahoo now... each time i saw her... ill just sad... very sad... maybe its time for me to stay off yahoo for a while... but never mind... like always, i am on ICQ 24/7. never off before. If she really thinks of me... she should able to get me at icq... but i think its going to be hard.
The best moments of we being together was the moments where me her and her cousin sis were together. we were like baby sitting a little girl go shopping... well it wasnt really that bad... and i remember i brought 2 shirts that is being picked by her. Was her suggestion, was the best clothing ever. Never knew i look good in those... but its already a memory. I still remember from 5 pm we went kaikai till late night. We even watched bugs bunney together, 3 of us. Was a fantastic day. We enjoyed alot. i keep it in my memory for ever. As long this webpage dont delete my blogs... all this going to be here. as a memories.
i still remember where it was tuesday. 2nd of december. I was in Kepong, driving without a destination, i have no a clue about going about in KL. I was working part time, runnign sales on the road. Drving every where. Called her up for some directions, before that, asked her about going for lunch. she already ate that time. but then i asked again to teman me makan. she say ok... sure i was happy indeed. We had strawberry sai mai lo together. The moments was so sweet. Never can forget about that moment. It was the best... We were together till i finish working. On out way back was also the memorial moments, on the way home. She was like so lau gai and stuff. she is messing with all the buttons, controls in the car. sure i did try to stop her. but sure lar never work out. but the rest i keep it for myself. i'm not telling any more over here. those are my memories.
many many more things... ah... those memories ... make me even more sad... even one more day where we went to Time square, Lawyat, sungai wang, Lot 10 and many many more places.... those are memories... :*(
very very very sad...
If i cannot be with her... i sure want my friends to be better. I may not be a good lover after all. Maybe thats why i could not win her heart of her ex.
haiz... thinking of the magical moments we were together for the pass 2 months. All the stuff we do together, study together, discuss, chat, laugh, smile, kai kai and many many things. Those are just pure memories. Could not affort to see her on Yahoo now... each time i saw her... ill just sad... very sad... maybe its time for me to stay off yahoo for a while... but never mind... like always, i am on ICQ 24/7. never off before. If she really thinks of me... she should able to get me at icq... but i think its going to be hard.
The best moments of we being together was the moments where me her and her cousin sis were together. we were like baby sitting a little girl go shopping... well it wasnt really that bad... and i remember i brought 2 shirts that is being picked by her. Was her suggestion, was the best clothing ever. Never knew i look good in those... but its already a memory. I still remember from 5 pm we went kaikai till late night. We even watched bugs bunney together, 3 of us. Was a fantastic day. We enjoyed alot. i keep it in my memory for ever. As long this webpage dont delete my blogs... all this going to be here. as a memories.
i still remember where it was tuesday. 2nd of december. I was in Kepong, driving without a destination, i have no a clue about going about in KL. I was working part time, runnign sales on the road. Drving every where. Called her up for some directions, before that, asked her about going for lunch. she already ate that time. but then i asked again to teman me makan. she say ok... sure i was happy indeed. We had strawberry sai mai lo together. The moments was so sweet. Never can forget about that moment. It was the best... We were together till i finish working. On out way back was also the memorial moments, on the way home. She was like so lau gai and stuff. she is messing with all the buttons, controls in the car. sure i did try to stop her. but sure lar never work out. but the rest i keep it for myself. i'm not telling any more over here. those are my memories.
many many more things... ah... those memories ... make me even more sad... even one more day where we went to Time square, Lawyat, sungai wang, Lot 10 and many many more places.... those are memories... :*(
very very very sad...
Getting Sick...
After Sunday where me L and D went for a swimming. That day go home, i'm sick. I never sick like this for a long time. This sick was just like the days i finish the Lipton events in Sunway Lagoon that time. Totally sick... A poor guy whose sick with no one noticed, until today.
With no purpose, destination... i drove my car on sunday... 9:15 pm. I drove all my way to cyberjaya, MMU to look for her. I just follow my feelings, my heath to a place. A place just to see her. Seeing her make me happy, with a Sad feeling within. I feel like i starting to chance as well. I am not myself any more. I am becoming, cold, down, and dead fello. Maybe because im sick? maybe?
Saw her online, chatted with her. She's no longer the old she. She did not treat me the way she always did anymore. Do not know how she actually feels but i am sure the one whose hurt. My friend told me, some one whose being love is always more "hang fuk" then the one who love her more. I believe i am the one whose love her more then i being loved by any one. Now i see why i am like this, i know this is love. i know it. But... i really want things to chance. I want her back. Thats all i want.
With no purpose, destination... i drove my car on sunday... 9:15 pm. I drove all my way to cyberjaya, MMU to look for her. I just follow my feelings, my heath to a place. A place just to see her. Seeing her make me happy, with a Sad feeling within. I feel like i starting to chance as well. I am not myself any more. I am becoming, cold, down, and dead fello. Maybe because im sick? maybe?
Saw her online, chatted with her. She's no longer the old she. She did not treat me the way she always did anymore. Do not know how she actually feels but i am sure the one whose hurt. My friend told me, some one whose being love is always more "hang fuk" then the one who love her more. I believe i am the one whose love her more then i being loved by any one. Now i see why i am like this, i know this is love. i know it. But... i really want things to chance. I want her back. Thats all i want.
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
First Blog ~
Hi people, this is my first blog of the day... lets hope everything is going to be fine. Busy day at work today, too much of travelling... and yet tiring. Better then having to sleep in the car. Which i almost did it. Yet i did it the other day.... ~WOotttt~This picture was taken in Taipei Street. And i just got my hair fixed.
I do look kinda tired back there. Never had enoght rest for the pass few days. Will update more later.
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