its almost christmas...

It 's almost christmas, tomorrow will be the eve. Where suppost to be the wonderful day where i can be with her. But that has already over. Now i am here single, sad when ever i think about it. Already 14 days, and writing this makes it the 15th day. We stop seeing each other for already 15 days. Last sunday where i just got back from genting, me and a few friends and also my cousins who followed me to genting those few days. I had a great time with all my friends and also my cousins. We had great time together. Thanks alot Ling and Yen.

Just to write something about genting la... We went to genting on Friday, afternoon, we had lunch in KL sentral and toke a bus to genting on friday. Along thejourney was like usual, as usual and boring~ :P hehehe nothing much happen on the way there. Slept a while on my way there tho. later then, toke cable car up. It was kinda cold up there. It is december, the weather should be cold tho. well, it was.... freaking cold :P Reach there around 4:30, settle down a little... and the time flies. It was 7:00 already, we decided to go out for a walk and stuff, we had Ramli burgers up there. The Cheapest food we can find in genting... RM 2.50 for a burger special which makes it the cheapest burger and dinner ever :P hehehe. Then, later then we went to Coffee baen for a drink till around late night tho... wow.... next day... heheh midnight lor... we had some alcohol then, Vodka, Whisky and chivas. Almost had that chivas, we could not finish it... oh well, the vodka was good tho, a little orange juice and coke got it started. That night, my cousin, was asking for my phone... asking me to give her my phone to keep... oh well, what else can i do... i just gave it to her thats all i did. She said that, you will surely phone some one if you have the phone. well that do make sense tho... i didnt call but sms instate... That night... i bet i am the one who had almost the whole half bottle of the vodka. and along with some mixture of balentine whiskey. i drank alot that night....

I already told myself that day, i wanted to get drunk... thats all i want to do... i want to let it out... let everything out... and i did... that night. Until a cirtain limit where most of us are kinda high and some actually didnt drank much and they went to play mahjong... some then continue to drink. me expecially...

I went and change the music, to the CD where i burn for her(berry)... another duplicate of the copy... i toke up that disc and played it on the player... i just got fustrated and kept on changing the music... until... where the music was the one i wanted to hear... It was "Ni Bu Zai" by wang lee hom. I stode there... listening to the music... then i sit down next to the speaker... cry... i could not remember a thing that time... i was totally out of my mind... so sad... very sad... I cry so hard... i just cry... and cry... that time, the only person who actually confort me is my cousin... i was sad.... very sad... but any how... thanks alot cous, thanks alot....

after thay night, i try to make myself happier. live happily, trying my best to do so... the 2nd day and 3rd day has nothing much to do... every thing was on the 1st day... where everything did kicked in... thanks every one... thanks alot...

on sunday night, me and my cousins went to pasar malam in kepong. I promised my cousins to bring them to the shake corner for a drink and i kept my promisses, so i brang them there. We went to pasar malam 1st, then we go "yam cha". The pasar malam was near to her house... sure i did, sms her asking her whether she wanna join us to go pasar malam... but then, she says she going yam cha later... infront of her house... ok... we do our shopping and she yam cha... after pasar malam, i called and ask her, whether wanna meet up or something... but then... she was like, "er, you like lar" kinda thing... maybe i was just sensitive... later then... i walked to the place... saw her with another guy there chatting and stuff... so i just walk away... seeing her smile and stuff will be good enoght for me... i just then dont want to go and interrupt them. i just can't do that... altho im sad, but... oh well i cant do anything you know...

i was away from the computer for 3 days... i did not yahoo, icq nor msn for the pass 3 days ... know nothing is happening in the background. where today... the whold day, i did not see her online at all... She in mmu, she should has at least online for a while or something... but she didnt... this really makes me worried... i really do still miss her i guess... as for now... its almost 1:45 am tuesday 23/12/2003, i still dont see her online... maybe she is still practicing for the e-sensation thing... i just drop her a few line of messages... just to make sure she online and read it... i really want to know what has happen... at least.... rang me or something... im worried shit...:((

oh well.... gotto go now...
all da best every one...

signing off ~ :P